1984 chp.1-3

The first biggest problem with Winston is that he is having crimethink thoughts which goes against the principles of Ingsoc. Forexample, Winston is writing crimethink thoughts in his diary in which he writes "DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER" about four more times in his diary (19). He writes this in his diary because he doesn't believe in the statements from the "Big Brother" party. He then wants to get rid of that page but then he decides to just hide his diary because he knows that the Thought Police can get him and give him some sort of punishment. And a thoughtcrime is considered death, according to the principles of Ingsoc. The second biggest problem is that he is in conflict with himself because he questions himself  asking for whom is he writing his diary for, the future?past?or the age of imaginary.He in a way believes that someone one day could be able to read his diary yet he tells himself that if the thought police were to  read his diary then him and the diary itself would be wiped off of existence.He then felt like "he was a lonely ghost uttering a truth that nobody would ever hear (26). The third biggest problem with Winston is that he talks about the love of his mother that she had for him and he talks about remembering his little baby sister and father. He also doesn't know or remember much in the way his family died but he knows that they sacrificed their lives for him dying in a tragic way. He claims that even though he was dreaming about them he remembers living a life full of love, togetherness, and friendship. He claims that love and affection is not seen now because he states that "such things, he saw, could not happen today. Today there were fear, hatred, and pain, but no dignity of emotion, or deep or complex sorrows (29). Oceania conflicts with what Winston thinks because the party states that Oceania had never been in alliance with Eurasia but he claims that they have been in alliance and therefor that is why these parties exist and why they're currently or were in war. In this particular situation he is having a doublethink mind because he believes in two contradictory beliefs in which he accepts both.